Namaste Guruji, Namaste Guruma 🙏… I am Arun Raj, son of Rajan Kayamkulam and with deep gratitude I share my 41 day meditation experience.
Through this meditation journey, I have come to realize that true transformation is not always loud it happens in silence, in the smallest shifts within.
During sun meditation, I suddenly felt as if I was floating, not upwards, but inwards, like I was moving deeper into myself. For a moment, I lost the sense of my physical body and found myself moving through a vast, open space filled with golden threads of light. When I reached out and touched that light, I felt an electric pulse shoot through me. In that instant, I saw something unexpected an endless library stretching beyond sight, its shelves filled with glowing scrolls. I felt drawn to one and as it came apart, I saw letters I couldn’t recognize, but somehow, I understood them. It wasn’t just knowledge, it was something alive, something I felt rather than read. A voice, whispered, “Remember.” But before I could absorb any more, a wave of fear rushed over me and I instinctively pulled back. I was back, sitting in meditation, but my heart was racing as if I had just returned from a long journey.
During moon meditation, I experienced something different. I felt an unfamiliar presence, not outside but within me. It wasn’t a vision, nor a voice, it was a realisation. It told me that the universe doesn’t give answers in words, it gives them silence. And in that silence, I felt something I never had before a stillness so complete that for a moment, I forgot who I was. There was no Arun, no name, no past, no future only existence, vast and endless. When I returned from that state, I felt tears on my face, but I wasn’t sad. I was just… free.
This meditation has not only changed how I feel within but has also begun to shape my actions.
Beyond my own self, I see changes in my family as well. There is more peace in our home. Where once there was resistance, there is now understanding. I do not know if they feel it as strongly as I do, but something has shifted and I know this meditation is the reason. I know that these experiences are not just visions they are lessons, reminders of a reality far greater than what the eyes can see. I have changed. I am still changing. And I offer myself to this path with complete surrender. With deep gratitude, I bow before you.
